By Sophie Fitzsimmons
Who am I? A question I often ask myself.
I had a dream last night. I was with a training coach. There was an audience, people were watching, waiting for me to answer with such excitement to hear me speak. Who are you Sophie? Who are you?” She was asking. She knew me by name - I was thinking in my dream - isn’t that enough? Panic was starting to rise, my face blushing. I don’t know, I was thinking, I don’t know. “I, err, I’m good with children?” She smiled at me; “that’s very well but who are you Sophie?” The question threw me spiralling backwards as I awoke from my dream.
As I start writing, I can feel panic. My mind blank, what do I have to give. As soon as the thought comes, it is undone. My heart is flooded with peace, I recognise this feeling. A tingling in my hands, I sense the hands of Jesus reaching and joining with mine. I feel His small still voice, I can feel his smile. A smile that is lovingly teasing me. His small still voice, filled with excitement; “We can write this together. You belong. You are worthy. You are filled with my Presence.” It is in this moment that I remember, I am the branch and He is the vine.
Who am I? Is a question that I challenge myself with far too often. People ask me what my passions, dreams and desires are, I panic and go red. The truth is, I still don’t know. I am still learning who I am. I’m still learning the core of who Sophie is. But I tell you. What I do know, is that Jesus knows me by name.
So what do I, what do you have to give? We have everything. My dreams, my passions and my desires are in me. I can feel them stirring - but first and foremost - what has and is constantly changing my life and quietening those taunting lies, is that I belong. You belong. You are known by your name. Jesus calls out to you. Are you listening?